I don’t know why my eyes opened that morning. It was a complete surprise. Why was I still here? Why was I awake?!
The night before I’d decided that enough was enough. The pain from my heart being broken was just too much. The persistent sense that I was worthless. I had given up!
My suicide attempt failed and here I am all these years later, full of joy. I would never have thought that I was destined for the happiest of experiences. My life has become more full of love than I could have ever possibly imagined!
That wasn’t the last time that I found myself falling into darkness. For me, it’s about finding the resolve to bear it out until I figure out what the solution is. Honestly, it doesn’t matter how bad things get, I constantly have to tell myself that it won't last forever.
Far from being a weakness, our experience's can become a strength. A foundation that we can build on, impervious wisdom to deal with the ups and downs in our life. A perspective of what’s important, and sometimes gratitude for all that we have.
So if you’re currently in a dark place, know that I’m speaking directly to you. Whatever you are experiencing, you can get through it. You might not see it yet but within what you’re going through lies the seed for everything you could ever hope for.
Remember that you’re not on your own in this. It’s so easy to feel cut off and think that no one cares, or that no one understands but please know that although everyone's situation is different, there are people who will understand and there are people who care.
Although it may feel like it sometimes, you'll never walk alone, so please don't give up!
By Soul Phoenix
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